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Tuesday, December 19, 2006, 11:35 PM
woww... haven been here for a long time.... suddenly so many posts...
firstly.... juz wanna tell isaac, john, ling na, nelson and priscy that i will defintely miss you all... i think it goes the same wif all the other people as well.... though i noe u guys like a few months... its as though i known u all for years... i really have been blessed by all of you in the past few months... you guys are the best! =)
remember that if you all ever need any1 to talk 2.. we are all only a call away... and God is a prayer away... the road ahead might be tough for all... but we will press on knowing our God is wif us, amen?
now about my life before and after the retreat and camp... realli felt like sharing about it....
before the retreat.. my life was quite screwed.... firstly...i didnt find a reason in going CO at all.... i felt that the purpose of me going CO was juz for the fact that i needed to be there and it was my responsibility to be there... there was no motivation at all and every practice seems like a repeat of the last 1.... it was the same thing over and over and over again... there was a point that i juz hope that i would juz fall sick or sumthin so that i could juz not go to CO... juz want to get out of this 3 times, 13 hours a week routine of CO....
also in co, there was a lack of sum1 which i could talk 2... 1 reason is that i juz couldnt find sum1 which actually understand my problems... i couldn't juz go up to them and say CO sux and i juz dun feel like going can i?... its sort of my job to make every1 come for CO and like it... but here i am hating every minute of it...
also.. as the days past by... the fear of going back to my class and getting the whole torture for another year was continue growing... i was trying to push school out of my mind for the whole holiday... but it was getting back to me...
things were not goin on very well in my family either... i wasn't realli on very good terms wif my both my brothers and my parents were also givin me pressure about the J2 year ahead... even up till now.. my older bro seems to hav a problem wif everything i do... each time i juz make a comment which he doesn't like... he would say sumthin like i hang out 2 much in church and turn into sum gangster or sumthin... same goes wif my mum... who said that i was much better the last time... there was quite a few things which made me quite angry.. and there was a few small argument....
in all these things.... i drifted away from God more and more... guess i lost sight of Him in every aspect of my life....
i lost sight that i was suppose to glorify Him in my cca, to be a light to the non believers.. and show them i was different wif Jesus in me...
i lost sight that i could face everything wif Him by my side... nothing in the world could ever bring me down... and all the problems that i face was not even a problem 2 Him...
i lost sight that i was the tool that God placed in my family so that they would one day, by His grace, become His followers... but yet i was behaving like a total idiot...
each and every1 of these problems... God threw at my face at the session in the reteat and camp... i can feel that He was trying to get me back on track on my life and wat i shld do.... realli glad that juz before the new year starts.. He helped me set my path and get me back to where i was suppose to be... realli glad that He prompted me to talk to joshua and settle all our misunderstandings and stuff... and all in all... bringing me back to the 1st love that He had showered upon me even before i was born...
Praise the Lord! =)
thank God for elohim... to be there for me each time im down...
vincent
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006, 11:35 PM
woww... haven been here for a long time.... suddenly so many posts...
firstly.... juz wanna tell isaac, john, ling na, nelson and priscy that i will defintely miss you all... i think it goes the same wif all the other people as well.... though i noe u guys like a few months... its as though i known u all for years... i really have been blessed by all of you in the past few months... you guys are the best! =)
remember that if you all ever need any1 to talk 2.. we are all only a call away... and God is a prayer away... the road ahead might be tough for all... but we will press on knowing our God is wif us, amen?
now about my life before and after the retreat and camp... realli felt like sharing about it....
before the retreat.. my life was quite screwed.... firstly...i didnt find a reason in going CO at all.... i felt that the purpose of me going CO was juz for the fact that i needed to be there and it was my responsibility to be there... there was no motivation at all and every practice seems like a repeat of the last 1.... it was the same thing over and over and over again... there was a point that i juz hope that i would juz fall sick or sumthin so that i could juz not go to CO... juz want to get out of this 3 times, 13 hours a week routine of CO....
also in co, there was a lack of sum1 which i could talk 2... 1 reason is that i juz couldnt find sum1 which actually understand my problems... i couldn't juz go up to them and say CO sux and i juz dun feel like going can i?... its sort of my job to make every1 come for CO and like it... but here i am hating every minute of it...
also.. as the days past by... the fear of going back to my class and getting the whole torture for another year was continue growing... i was trying to push school out of my mind for the whole holiday... but it was getting back to me...
things were not goin on very well in my family either... i wasn't realli on very good terms wif my both my brothers and my parents were also givin me pressure about the J2 year ahead... even up till now.. my older bro seems to hav a problem wif everything i do... each time i juz make a comment which he doesn't like... he would say sumthin like i hang out 2 much in church and turn into sum gangster or sumthin... same goes wif my mum... who said that i was much better the last time... there was quite a few things which made me quite angry.. and there was a few small argument....
in all these things.... i drifted away from God more and more... guess i lost sight of Him in every aspect of my life....
i lost sight that i was suppose to glorify Him in my cca, to be a light to the non believers.. and show them i was different wif Jesus in me...
i lost sight that i could face everything wif Him by my side... nothing in the world could ever bring me down... and all the problems that i face was not even a problem 2 Him...
i lost sight that i was the tool that God placed in my family so that they would one day, by His grace, become His followers... but yet i was behaving like a total idiot...
each and every1 of these problems... God threw at my face at the session in the reteat and camp... i can feel that He was trying to get me back on track on my life and wat i shld do.... realli glad that juz before the new year starts.. He helped me set my path and get me back to where i was suppose to be... realli glad that He prompted me to talk to joshua and settle all our misunderstandings and stuff... and all in all... bringing me back to the 1st love that He had showered upon me even before i was born...
Praise the Lord! =)
thank God for elohim... to be there for me each time im down...
vincent
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